In this one the author gets that dreaded question from a friend. I think most of us have endured and feared the question would present itself, but you're never fully prepared to answer it. Kudos to the friend for his return answer. That.....could have been an interesting conversation, or more.
Eric~
At age 15 I was friends with this other boy who was 12. He was African American and sort of nerdy, dark skin, tall and thin. I was nervous every time we were together and I realized that i had a crush on him. I would try not to be nervous around him but the more I tried the more nervous I was. I would actually shake around him. The main thing was that I didn't want him to notice but one day he asked me why I was always so nervous. I responded by saying very loudly which I didn't mean to but it came out "I'M NOT NERVOUS!!!" not in an angry way just very loud. There was a lot of sexual tension on my part because he was so cute and often liked to hang around with no shirt. How far below his bellybutton is his dick?
"Are you gay?" he asked me one day. I responded with an exaggerated laugh. "I think
I could be" he said.
I quickly changed my tune and said "Well, that's okay."
I was even more nervous around him after that. I didn't know how to capitalize on his very frank admission that he was questioning his sexuality so the moment passed.
The closest I came to anything sexy with him was sneakily seeing his dick at public urinals. He had a great looking circumcised dick, good size for his age. I think the last time I saw it he knew I was looking and let me get a better look because his dick was already out of his pants and he unbuttoned them and exposed the pubes and balls to me as well. I think that was on purpose but I never capitalized on it.
I was just always a ball of nerves when I was around him hoping he'd start something up but he never did. I think he was open to it though but I could never make the first move.
Xanos
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i was asked the question. are you gay? i would answer the question with a question. why do you ask? do you want something? sometimes they would just say no and leave it at that. then there was times they would say maybe i do want something. then they would ad you game? i would say if you are i am game.
ReplyDeleteYou didn't know how to capitalize? When he said that he thinks he might be gay you missed an easy opportunity, you were supposed to ask if he has done anything with another boy. If he said "no" then you were supposed to ask if he'd like to try. If he said "yes" then you should have pried for all the good details and then followed up by inquiring if he'd like to try again. You could have used lessons from me back then. I'm 99 per cent sure you could have started something.
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