14 and Angry at my Dick

Good point about confusing masturbation with ejaculation. For me those "firsts" both happened at the same time. I had a few nocturnal emissions before discovering the real thing, but they probably don't count. I was 14, in bed one night, 10 year old brother in the other bed.

My dick got real hard and I was trying all sorts of ways under the covers to make it go back to normal. Finally I got up and sat on the side of my bed and got my dick out through my briefs and pajamas. I started insanely pumping back and forth on my boner. I was mad at my dick and really whacking it, wanting it never to get hard again. You know what happened. The rush of feelings scared the life out of me, and at the same time I felt stuff blast out of my dick. I turned on the lamp and saw freaky stuff on the rug. there was slippery stuff on my dick and pajamas.

The crazy thing is this: I knew exactly what had happened although I don't remember ever reading or hearing about jacking off. My brother, in the other bed, asked me what I was doing. I don't know what I told him, but got back in my bed and lay there awake most of the night. Then got a wet washcloth to clean the rug in the morning.I began jacking off nearly every night believing that the bro was asleep. He never mentioned seeing me play with my dick until he shot his own load a few years later and told me proudly that he could now do the same thing I did.

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