"You want to see where I do it?"

Can I throw in a somewhat different response to my first sexual explosion? The writer on this first time says he now had a secret and that nobody knew about it, not even his friends.

When I shot my first freakin' load it was such a big deal with me that I knew I had to tell somebody. Not my best friend, because I might gross him out. Not any of the other good friends, because they might talk about me or even tell on me to adults. So I picked a boy that was definitely a friend, but not at the top of the list, so to speak. I went to his house to show off my scooter. At least that was the excuse.

After while we were hanging out on his back patio and drinking cokes. I started off, "Want to hear something freaky that happened yesterday?" He said "What?"

I told him he might think it was nasty but he said to go ahead.

I barely got started, nervously telling him about rubbing my hand back and forth on my thing while it was stiff. Right away he interrupted and asked "Did the stuff happen?"

He knew exactly what I was talking about! I was so relieved. He didn't look down on me, he didn't act shocked. For a while we just sat at the picnic table talking about the way it had happened for both of us.

Then he said, "You want to see where I do it?"

We went to a narrow place in the back yard between the fence and the woodpile (for the fireplace). We could see the back door from between the logs, so it was very safe.

Without saying anything more we did the job right there together. When it was over we made each other promise not to tell.

That guy went on to be my regular jerking bud. My best friend was still my best friend in a non-sexual way, but the other guy was a much different kind of friend.

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