I don't know who can relate but I used to have horrible thoughts when I was a teenager and sometimes I'd get erect over those thoughts, sometimes I'd masturbate. I always felt guilty afterwards but all I did was fantasize about things I never acted.
One time when I was 15 years old and at my friend's house. His little sister came in the room wearing nothing but her panties, no shirt, no pants. He starts yelling at her to get out and calling out to his mom but while all that commotion was taking place I was staring at his sister with a very stiff boner. The little sister was only 9 and I felt bad about having those thoughts, I wondered if I was capable of the unthinkable.
Another time, my young male cousin only 5 was naked and I stared and got a boner I went into the bathroom and blew a tremendous load into the toilet paper. My younger brother's 8 year old little friend was laying back in our room with no shirt on and the shorts were down to the V part of the body. Maybe I wanted to pull them down because I knew that a fraction of an inch below were all his "parts". I tried to think of a way for it to look like an accident but I didn't do it. I did feel very bad though that I wanted to do it. My brother was 8 years younger than I was, I never had fantasies about him but I think it was because I saw him naked every single day, there was no mystery.
I did have a very vivid dream about my brother where I got him and his friend to play with my dick until I cummed. I actually cummed in my bed. It was a wet dream, but also a nightmare because I thought that I really had done it even after waking up. It took a few moments for me to realize that none of that had actually taken place and I looked over at my little brother and his friend who were asleep.
I went into the restroom and thanked my lucky stars that none of that had really happened. I hated my fantasy life as a teenager but I did get it under control and never acted on any of my fantasies. I really wish that when I was in my teen years I had a good friend my age who was fine with jacking off and doing sexual things it might have cut down on the weird fantasies.
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Starting when we were just babies, there were two other boys in our block that were the same age as me. We were together all the time not... -
Dave brings us this story from his youth. I believe it is best to let the story serve as testament to his affection for someone he cherished...
i would always look at the front of other boys jeans. think how big there dick was and what it would be like to have him alone with me. then there were times when a boy would rub the front of his jeans and make a bulge in his jeans. after watching him rub the front of his jeans made my dick get hard. when i was alone in my bedroom thinking about what it would be like to have him laying next to me and we are fooling around with each other. made my dick get hard as a rock so i would have to take care of business which ended up with a power buster. i never started to cum until i was eleven. i also had wet dreams from what i had seen. these fantasize started back when i was just a young boy around the age of six with my cousins then it went on all through my school years. i still look and fantasize to this day. thank you for sharing about your fantasize.
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In the olden days (and I'm old), in Christianity we were taught about the existence of the devil. I think it made it easier for us to understand that there was a dark spirit who would always be tempting us to do bad and evil things. I mention this because the author stated he felt guilty after having these thoughts, like wondering if deep inside he was an evil person who might actually do these things someday. But with the concept of a devil, we know where these thoughts come from and they're easier to understand that it's not really coming from us.
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The devil made me do it! (Flip Wilson)
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