I was 11 and I saw some older boys 13 and up, changing, peeing and all of their penises looked fat, hairy and ugly. I vowed that I would never have an ugly looking dick like the older boys, like my cousin who was 3 years older than me. A year after making that vow pubic hair started coming in and my dick started growing, to top that off I was having erections and feeling the overwhelming need to touch it. I squirted in the bathroom it hit the wood floor, little white droplets like milk. I cleaned it up and tried not to do it again but after a few days it was a nocturnal emission that woke me up. I knew what was happening but I didn't like it. I wanted to be a kid and growing hair, getting bigger, having ejaculations was like my childhood was coming to an end. I shaved a few times but the hair always grew back and eventually there was so much hair that shaving became a lot of trouble.I knew I crossed that line from childhood to adolescence the day my 9 year old cousin told me that I had a "big, ugly wiener" if that didn't sound so familiar. We weren't messing around just pissing behind some bushes I looked down at him and yes, there was a tremendous size difference. It was difficult for me because I didn't want the changes to happen and yet each day it seemed, I was bigger, hairier (legs too), sweatier.
In my eyes I looked like a grown man but I'm sure to most people I was just an awkward looking adolescent. My question is how did you feel going into puberty? It's exciting for some for me it was distressing for the first few years because I couldn't pass for a young kid anymore.
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