Josh - Breakfast with my Boyfriend (Part III)

A continued story, see part II

 The next morning I talked to him about it, because we were so open to our emotions it wasn't awkward. I asked him if it felt peaceful to him, and he said yeah. I then said, but never again. He nodded in agreement. The next weekend he slept over at my house. I went to turn off the light and I looked at him in his bed, he then moved over to one side and pulled the sheets back with this big smile. I turned off the lights and jumped into bed. He immediately gripped me in this tight hug and I fell asleep almost immediately. We got use to the closeness and use to hug everytime we saw each other. We began saying I love you mate and stuff like that. And because people thought we were brothers, it just went by unnoticed. We use to argue over the fact that what we were doing was gay, and it made us depressed that we may be gay. And the way we cheered ourselves up was to hold hands and then that caused us to worry that we were gay and the cycle continued.

 When we lay in bed, we use to run our hands over each others back. It was like a tease everytime my hand touched the skin on the back of his neck. I tried one night running my hand up the back of his shirt and then slowly around the brim of his boxers. Each time I got closer to his boxers he wouldn't react. So I went a bit further each time lowly placing my hand inside his boxers, just around the brim of them at least. I then placed my hand inside the brim and very very slowly went further down. He didn't react at all. I ran my fingers down his baby smooth bum. So far that I would run my fingers between his legs almost touching his testicles. I then thought, I don't think he's worried... I then moved my hand around the side of his boxers to cup his testicles and then freaked out and pulled my hand back out. He then grabbed my hand and put it back down there. I massaged his balls while slowly moving his penis with my wrist. It wasn't.... for pleasure, it just was....... idk..... I really don't know. I felt the need to explore his body... But even after that, we didn't think it was gay, I don't know how, lol

 When Halloween came around, he invited me to his house along with Tully, the hypo kid. Because Tully was over, we couldn't sleep in the same bed. So I lay on the floor restlessly... I felt something grab my hand and I looked up to see Josh in his bed. He had reached out with his hand just so we were close in some sense. He smiled at me and I smiled back, and that's when it hit me. I let go off his hand and ran out into the living room area. He chased after me and started saying, I'm sorry, I'm sorry. I didn't mean to, I'm not gay I promise. I then looked at him and said I can't do this anymore. I love you, I want to hold you, I want to be yours. I want you to be my boyfriend. He stepped back in shock, his eyes widened. I began crying, I knew I had just destroyed everything we had. Unable to see with tears in my eyes I felt him grab my waist and move in closer. I looked at him and he kissed me. He then said, "And now you know why I wanted to kill myself. Because I feared I was gay... but just like you said, you'd fix it." I then said, "At least if we go to hell for being gay, we'll both be there." He smiled and kissed me again, we fell into the couch and well, just picture one of those romantic movie moments, lol

 The next day I woke up as Tully left the room and he said to me, "Come on, I want to share my breakfast with my 'boyfriend'." I JUMPED out of bed when he said that...... and we BOTH raced to the table.

CG